4 in the morning...

and i still could not sleep.
che mi was too but she has just managed to take the last train to slumberland. probably half way there already...
it's 'sway' by bic runga on Sour Sally.. aah i simply love this song!
Bic Runga was born in Christchurch. Her mother, Sophia Tang, was a chinese malaysian lounge singer in Malaysia when she met Joseph Runga, a Maori soldier on leave from Vietnam. But they then moved to live in New Zealand laa.. i just love her voice. skali dgr macam Andrea The Corrs but she definitely has this thing with her yang made her music somewhat sgt bestttttt i dont know how to describe with words hehe.. you guys have to hear it yourself.

SWAY

Don't stray
Don't ever go away
I should be much to smart for this
You know it gets the better
Of me sometimes
When you and I collide
I fall into an ocean of you
Pull me out in time
Don't let me drown
Let me down
I say its all because of you and here I go
Losing my control
I'm practising your name
So I can say it to your face it doesn't seem right
To look you in the eye
And let all the things you mean to me
Come tumbling out my mouth indeed its time
Tell you why
I say its infinately true
Say you'll stay
Don't come and go
Like you do
Sway my way
Yeah I need to know
All about you
And there's no cure
And no way to be sure
Why everythings turned inside out
Instilling so much doubt
It makes me so tired
I feel so uninspired
My head is battling with my heart
My logic has been torn apart
And now
It all turns sour
Come sweeten
Every afternoon
Say you'll stay
Don't come and go
Like you do
Sway my way
Yeah I need to know
All about you
Say you'll stay
Don't come and go
Like you do
Sway my way
Yeah I need to know
All about you
Its all because of you
Its all because of you

A Vain Attempt

today is friday the 26th. woke up at 8am. had yet another late subuh prayer. *sigh*
the thing with me is, i am very ambitious. i have a lot to achieve, i dream high.. but i have NEVER work hard enough to accomplish my visions. i keep telling myself, promising everybody that i will do my very best, but in the end of the day i'm just another 'mat jenin' who closed her eyes tight in a vain attempt wishing as soon as she opens her eyes, 10 years has passed and now she's a successful figure in the nation. vain vain.
i had let 7 precious days during this christmas break went without finishing a single page of balaji's oromaxillofacial surgery textbook nor i have finish the ortodhontic analysis' notes which i already worked on half way. half way.. i realize that is how i love to leave things.. what is wrong with me?! i know i have a final exam coming around the corner, i am clearly aware that i HAVE to fixed the mess i'd done in my mid-semester papers, and i am wide awake of the fact that there are people whom i can NEVER let down. but itula i makan saman a few days je after that i lupe lg janji2 i buat. promises that i will change, i will finish studying for my finals, that i will sleep less? nah this is another new year's resolution yg i have turunkan frm years to years a.k.a belum tecapai lagi. huhu. tidur or sleep or to rest with your eyes closed and your mind and body not active is a must. to live a healthy life one should get a proper sleep; an ideal sleep is 8 hours during the night. because that part of the day is when your body respods to the regeneration and tissue repair process which had been scientifically proven to be highly active during that period.
sleep less then your body will repair less damaged tissues, you become tired very easily, then your body immune system drops to certain level they shouldn't and you get sick. people always think about the effect of lack of sleep. but about oversleeping??? for a person like me? who sleeps 20 hours on sundays and belas-belas hours every other day?? adakah

1. neuron cells in my brain akan menjadi inactive then seperti machine yang lame x digunakan, it will jammed?
2. all the fats i've eaten will mengendap and become permanently terendap macam bontot kuali yang tak pernah dibersihkan; hitam legam dan tebal kematu?
3. i will become dymentia at the age of 45 when my other 45-year-old friends are still giving lectures to dental students kt UKM??

OKAYY NO.3 IS SCARY!

see, as im writing this entry, my albert-einstein-super-great-grand-daughter-roomate is studying. i'm crapping and sigh-ing about how lazy i am yet there she is, studying oral medicine dgn relax nye. oh god what am i doing..?

Full House.

i figured i should introduced the main characters who revolve around my life and which you people will often hear about from now on in my upcoming entries.

very motherly and Full House's great cooker - KAK INTAN

super senior a.k.a penebas and perintis universitas prof. dr. moestopo ( so en.jazman said. )

albert einstein super great great grand daughter - CHE MI

my sengal and ngengfeng roomate who's bed can make one suffer from scoliosis =p

the opera singer - SYIKIN

when she shouts, glasses shattered..=p

the childish-est 22-year-old i've ever met - FAT

she said she drinks omega not anlene and still lordosis. hehehe ;p

the 'si diam-diam ubi berisi' - ANA

whose chicken soup we all love (=

these people are the souls that bring colors and happiness into this house. but let's not forget another person who completes the puzzle in my life :

ENNIE the perfectionist

• she is the most teliti-est person i have ever known

though this particular character doesn't actually live in Full House, she's one of the component that made it up.

First Entry!

so here i am. sitting in front of my laptop which is going to 'die' soon, writing my first entry for my very first official blog which i finally gave birth to. why 'finally'? because it took me ages to realize that there is no harm in letting people know what is going on with my life. because it took me ages to have the gut to express my feelings the way i never have done before. because now i speak..

the me i used to be is the me who prefer to keep her feelings to herself. who thought it is better to not to think or talk about it and just be happy. who believe everything will be okay if she tells her mind to do so. only after twenty one years of living she now actually open her eyes to the fact that she has been playing the games of life the wrong way..

i have changed. but i am still the same. confused? don't be.

today is monday, december 22nd. i woke up at quater to 7AM.. waking up to find that everybody is still deep in slumber. of course, it's only 7 in the morning, on a holiday monday. who in the right mind will wake up this early??- which makes me an abnormal person then?? err..? anyhow, realizing that it is only 7 and that everybody is still dreaming, i tried closing my eyes again, hoping to continue whatever dream i was in before. think so i had closed my eyes for nearly 15 minutes already but my mind has started it's engine and never want to turn it off again. so i ordered my body which does not respond to my warmed up brain and get my butts off the comfy bed.
so here are the activities this abnormal person did since she stupidly wake up soo gile early on a holiday monday :

1. laundry
2. flasking full denture
3. revising ortho

at 9AM+, ana left for bandung. which means there left only the four of us in Full House ( the name we gave to our new rented house [= ). we said our good byes to ana. her departure made me think of kak intan. because three days earlier, we said our good byes to kak intan too. she went back to malaysia for christmas break.
( note that i'm in the state of ultimate jealousy as i'm writing this ) she must be enjoying every second of the 2 weeks holidays to the fullest i believe. for this is going to be her last holiday home. okayy dah tak jealous sgt. haha.

had lunch around 1 o'clock. che mi's ayam masak cili api. her first attempt. hehe. boleh laa che mi. (=
btw, an incident happened after we had our lunch. there's a weird whispering sound coming from the kitchen. it's quite loud or else how will we notice the sound laa kan? so i went to the kitchen to check on it and gas smells sting through my nose. i don't know which part is broken but it definitely came from the gas tank! positive!

since nobody dare plus don't know to fix it, we called the mbak where we bought the tank. she came and fixed it. thank god we don't all die from breathing methane! ( or is it butane?? whtevr )

apart from being abnormal and breathing methane, nothing interesting happened today. since it's only quater past three and everybody is broke thus are forced to locked ourselves at home to avoid from spending any money and then suffer for the next three weeks, i guess that's it for my first entry.

to farhan : i hope you enjoy your stay in jakarta.
to che mi, fatha and syikin : boringg weyhhh!