A Vain Attempt

today is friday the 26th. woke up at 8am. had yet another late subuh prayer. *sigh*
the thing with me is, i am very ambitious. i have a lot to achieve, i dream high.. but i have NEVER work hard enough to accomplish my visions. i keep telling myself, promising everybody that i will do my very best, but in the end of the day i'm just another 'mat jenin' who closed her eyes tight in a vain attempt wishing as soon as she opens her eyes, 10 years has passed and now she's a successful figure in the nation. vain vain.
i had let 7 precious days during this christmas break went without finishing a single page of balaji's oromaxillofacial surgery textbook nor i have finish the ortodhontic analysis' notes which i already worked on half way. half way.. i realize that is how i love to leave things.. what is wrong with me?! i know i have a final exam coming around the corner, i am clearly aware that i HAVE to fixed the mess i'd done in my mid-semester papers, and i am wide awake of the fact that there are people whom i can NEVER let down. but itula i makan saman a few days je after that i lupe lg janji2 i buat. promises that i will change, i will finish studying for my finals, that i will sleep less? nah this is another new year's resolution yg i have turunkan frm years to years a.k.a belum tecapai lagi. huhu. tidur or sleep or to rest with your eyes closed and your mind and body not active is a must. to live a healthy life one should get a proper sleep; an ideal sleep is 8 hours during the night. because that part of the day is when your body respods to the regeneration and tissue repair process which had been scientifically proven to be highly active during that period.
sleep less then your body will repair less damaged tissues, you become tired very easily, then your body immune system drops to certain level they shouldn't and you get sick. people always think about the effect of lack of sleep. but about oversleeping??? for a person like me? who sleeps 20 hours on sundays and belas-belas hours every other day?? adakah

1. neuron cells in my brain akan menjadi inactive then seperti machine yang lame x digunakan, it will jammed?
2. all the fats i've eaten will mengendap and become permanently terendap macam bontot kuali yang tak pernah dibersihkan; hitam legam dan tebal kematu?
3. i will become dymentia at the age of 45 when my other 45-year-old friends are still giving lectures to dental students kt UKM??

OKAYY NO.3 IS SCARY!

see, as im writing this entry, my albert-einstein-super-great-grand-daughter-roomate is studying. i'm crapping and sigh-ing about how lazy i am yet there she is, studying oral medicine dgn relax nye. oh god what am i doing..?